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No Woman's Choice

I’m scared and terrified. How will my family ever forgive me? I am so embarrassed. I don’t want my friends to find out that I am – pregnant. What’s worse is the fact that the baby is not even my boyfriend’s. How could I have done this? I just want to die. I am just sick all the time, not from being pregnant but from shear stress. I am being consumed by the thoughts of it all the time. Everyone will hate me. My life is over because I’ll never be able to do all the things that I have always wanted to do like finish college, get a good job, go places, get married. Oh my God, please help me. He’s going to leave me when he finds out.

Abortion? No. I can’t. The baby is alive inside of me. I can feel it fluttering like a butterfly in my belly. I can touch it when it moves like that. I’m even strangely protective of my belly now. It's just if there is no abortion, my boyfriend leaves. If I do he would just eventually leave me anyway. Then my conscience will totally murder me. Should I be bullied into killing my own baby and for what – nothing? But what if he would marry me? Would it be worth it? Would he, my boyfriend, be worth killing my baby?

Thankfully, I knew the Lord and His Word. Because of this, I understood that abortion was not the answer. All the fears that I had were of my own making. By trusting in the Almighty Savior of my soul, I was able to bear facing my family and friends. Mom was shocked and dad was disappointed and embarrassed. However, it did not last long and before I knew it, mom was out buying baby clothes.

The Lord set in motion a chain of events that forever solidified the acceptance of my child into my family and community. My son was born almost two months premature. As a result, his lungs were not fully developed. He was immediately placed on a respirator where his lungs ruptured from the amount of pressure that was applied. Chest tubes were inserted through his sides. It seemed that needles and wires were inserted into every available piece of flesh in his body. He remained in critical condition for more than two weeks.

The stress I felt from not wanting to be pregnant and having a baby was nothing compared to the possibility of losing my son over the next three weeks. I prayed like I never prayed in my entire life that my child would live. I drove to the hospital everyday in order to visit him. My family visited when they could. A prayer chain was started at several churches by way of my immediate family as well as aunts, uncles, cousins, friends and co-workers. My baby was prayed for, loved and accepted by everyone.

Even though the word miracle was not to be used by the staff working with my son, they could not but help sneak around and call him the miracle child. He came out of his perilous ordeal to become a very strong healthy infant. I named him Daniel after “God’s Trust." Daniel and myself were definitely in God’s trust for truly all things work together for good to them that love God… (Romans 8:28).

I hung in there and put my trust in the Lord. I was able to attend college, get a promotion, go places, play sports, coach sports for my children’s school and even learn to fly airplanes. Life definitely did not end because I chose to keep my baby. Life can be hard but with the Lord to guide your paths it can be a joyous adventure. No matter what circumstances you may find yourself in, the Lord will help you through if you just let Him. He loves you more than any parent could ever love a child. Jesus laid down His very life for you on the cross and paid the penalty for all your sins that you might have life and have it more abundantly. Three days later He was raised from the grave to conquer death once and for all - for all of time.

Trust the Lord in all your ways.

We know that all things work together for good to them that love God… (Romans 8:28).

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. Be not wise in thine own eyes…(Proverbs 3:5-7).

God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1).

Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much (James 5:16 ).

For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life (John 3:16).

Your Decision to Receive Christ as Your Savior:

Confess to God that you are a sinner. Believe that the Lord Jesus Christ died for your sins on the cross and was raised for your justification. Receive and Confess Him as your personal Savior.

Assurance As a Believer:

That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved (Romans 10:9).

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